Lament

While being here at Launch, many of the racers have experienced some sort of spiritual attack, myself included. The enemy is slipping lies into my head to try and shake me down. I am not going to lie, I let him get to me for a second. I started to believe those lies and doubt every reason why I am here at Launch. But let me tell you how good our Father is. 

I was crying out to the Lord begging these thoughts to get out of my head because I knew they weren’t true. My God would not want me thinking so negatively about myself. I left my Squad during a hangout session to go and spend time with the Lord, 1:1. He spoke into me and told me to read Lamentations, I asked what verse and He said “all of it”. So, I began to read. He highlighted different things for me this time though, I interpreted it a little differently. 

I read it as the enemy was trying to attack me instead of man and how God comes through that and He casts out ALL fear. He shines light where there is shadow and He literally beat death, who am I to doubt the creator?! 

Fast forward to worship where everyones hearts were pouring out and the Lord was just breaking chains left and right. He spoke to me so clearly “I am your rock, lean on me.” I couldn’t help but smile ear to ear like a giddy child. My Papa loves me so much that He just met me where I was at, even through these thoughts and the enemy attacking. He is so good.

A few moments later the Lord spoke to me and said “Lament, lean on me and lament right now.” For me, this meant to realize that I said goodbye to my family, to comfort and to my old lifestyle. I reflected for a minute and just sorrowed. He quickly pulled me out and said “Now let’s celebrate, daughter.” How beautiful?! It was such a sweet interaction and praise God for knowing what I needed more than I knew. He allowed me to feel sad, to mourn and he taught me how to move on and equip me for battle. 

My mentor spoke last night and said when we are feeling spiritual attack, that means we are on the battle field and the enemy is so scared for what we are going to do. Big things are coming in Jesus name and I can’t wait to share them with the world! 

I am going to shout His praise in the nations and expand this kingdom, I challenge you to do the same wherever you are at. 

The Lord has comforted me and flooded me with love. In 12 hours, I will be on a plane to Nicaragua, let’s do this.