I have putting this blog off because I don't want this to be real. I am going to be transparent with y'all.

All World Racers have been pulled off the field due to this virus. I am filled with anger, sadness and confusion. Just five days ago, my squad and I were doing ministry in Peru and now I am sitting at my house in Indiana wondering what just happened. I am hurt. I have no idea what's next, I am still trying to process what is going on right now. 

This hardest part is that my family has been ripped away from me. The 11 people I was doing life with are now spread across the states. We have been through many trials which has progressed our relationships into a deeper love than I have experienced. My heart is broken. 

I do not have words for what is going on, so it is difficult for me to type this. The only thing I ask is for prayers and to just meet me where I am at right now. This is going to take time for me to process. After spending 24/7 with those people, it is so hard to walk away and get on a plane alone. I do not want to be in the States, I want to be on the field where we were set out to be. I am taking this day by day and asking God what He is doing, because I can't see anything.

Thank you to my supporters for allowing me to experience the best months of my life. I hope this isn't the end.