As I get closer to training camp and my launch date, I can’t help but to be overwhelmed with emotions. Expressing my emotions has always been something that I have struggled with, but I have noticed the more I pray for God to give me guidance and strength I have been able to be more present and allow those feelings into my heart. These months of fundraising and connecting with my Squad have already been so amazing and I can feel God working, I can’t imagine how amazing it is going to be on the field. I know He is going to use all of us so much, including every person that is on this journey with us. All of the people praying for us, helping us financially, giving us guidance and even the check out employee when we buy our gear, you are such a vital part in this journey. Let me break down some of these emotions I have been feeling.
Excitement – I am overwhelmed with excitement as I get to know my squad and really start to see how God has placed us all together. I know each one of us is supposed to be here in this route. I am excited to see how God empowers us and how we grow together. I am excited to travel the world with a bible and a backpack, what an amazing opportunity!!
Anxious/Nervous – I can’t help but to have these feelings, this is a huge commitment. What if something goes wrong? Why did God call me to do this? Did He make a mistake? I know God never makes mistakes and He will walk with me every step of this journey. The enemy is really trying to trick me, prayers for these thoughts to go away would be so amazing. Of course I am nervous to leave the comfort of Indiana with my family and friends as well. I know this will be difficult, but I also know that God would not lead me to this if I couldn’t handle it.
Loved – I am feeling so much love and fulfillment from all of your support. All of the fundraising ideas, words of encouragement and prayers are so appreciated. My heart is full with the support system I have here at home and I know I will have all of you when I am on the field as well. I am also feeling loved by my squad, have I mentioned how awesome they are?! Almost everyday someone asks how they can pray for the rest of the squad, it is so amazing to have them through this unknown journey with me.
Joy – I am joyful that I get this opportunity to connect with so many people and different cultures while spreading God’s love. This still feels like a dream that I get to go on this journey. I am joyful that I have so many partners along the way that are connected to this trip and I am excited to see how God uses all of you during this season.
Thank you to everyone that has helped me in anyway and thank you for showering me with love. I am learning to open up and be more vulnerable. This has been a huge learning experience already and I am excited to continue on with you by my side.
